the-unwritten-vista
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Saturday. 31th January 2009.
Current Mood: February(:
It's the end of a month, gone are the days in January. February is coming, tomorrow to be exact. Yet I still have yet to set any goals for this year or even worker hard at my studies. Time is running fast, I must not waste any more time already, for I relly want to do well in my studies. I want people around me to be happy for me and to know that those gifts and encouragement they gave me are not wasted. I am such a good girl, I have not touched the Wii set since I installed it the other day. But perhaps because it was the Japanese that makes me reluctant? Truth be told, I am not a game addict at all, I would rather watch drama serials or use the computer than playing games. Even Nintendo's famous games cannot turn me on. The arrival of February means my birthday is drawing near. I would soon be turning fifteen already, but I am still very childish at times:/ Presents, I don't know what I want either. On one hand, I seems to have everything and anything I wanted, but on the other I seemed to have nothing at all. I feel so empty inside, the instant satifisation of owning something I craved for is not as nice as having to wait a long time before you can finally get it. Being showered with gifts makes me happy, but that type of happiness does not usually last long. Maybe because everything come at one go and go all at once, I may not have the time to appriciate each and every one of them yet. Material happiness is something I have, but am I really having real happiness deep down? Perhaps it true that happiness is the only thing that money cannot buy. But without money, there sure is no happiness at all. Are you happy as you really seemed? Think twice before you conclude confidently. I would say yes on the outside, but sometime I really don't feel happy at all, empty rather than sad. The smile on my face is usually just a forced one, the laughters are empty. It has been a long time I really felt happiness, last December was the only one I could remember(; But that happiness lasted for the entire trip of 27 days, those happiness are genunie. So were the smiles and laughters, tears of joy. I never so felt any happier after that. Nothing near that type of happiness at all.
posted by vanessa loves you # 4:24 PM 
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