the-unwritten-vista
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Thursday. 12 March 2009.
Current Mood: Happy yet sad.
It has been three months or so since I was away from my home. Did I ever mention I was happiest during school holidays, not because they are time when I need not attend school or revise for test. It's because long school holidays means time to go home(: And home is the only place I ever felt real happiness, people give me whatever I wanted, I get to see my loved one, I get to go around and shop all day, I get to be at home. Without being at home, I miss my family and friends there, the memories I had there, the fun I had there. Of this fifteen years in my life, I never once felt sad at home, even if I were to get lost back at home, I would never feel afraid or cry, for I know people would always be there for me. I remembered I get lost at some place back home when I was three or so, in a crowded shopping mall, but I never cry despite being loss. I knew people would always be there to help me find my way back home, and they did so by finding my mother. There was once I was lost at Takashimaya back here when I was seven or so, and the moment I lost sight of my mother, I just broke down into tears. I was very afraid for I do not know who to turn to or seek help from. I was really totally at a loss then. December and June are my favourite months, for they are the time I would be back home. I love sitting on the aeroplane too, I never understood why children cry their lungs out and had to be dragged to get on board. Jetting to me is my way and transport of going home.
Even though I spend very few time at home, one out of twelve months per year or less, but I can remember everything and anything back home. At home, I would be free to be myself, I need not feel stress over anything, I can go anywhere I wanted. It is at home that you see the true me. Even though people always says Singapore and Hong Kong is very alike, I think this saying is very wrong. One is where I always smile and the other with occasional unhappiness. If you were to explore and think carefully, you will spot how different Singapore and HK are. Those memories I had back at home can never be found or replaced anywhere else, ever.
And I am starting to miss home, I want to go back now. And I want to stay there forever, and ever. I don't mind all the other stuffs, I really don't. All is want is to be at home, it is so simple, yet difficult for me.
Shall stop here, before I start crying:/
Today during English, Miss Lin took over Miss Djie. We watched some video on animal testing. The video showed how cruel animal testing was, I can still recall the monkey struggling, the dog whining in pain, the cat being tortured and the poor rabbit dying. Those animals suffer in silence, so poor thing):
OMG! I dread having to take back my result slip. Wonder how many subjects would I fail? Hope can get good grades, even though even if I fail, my parents will not do anything. But good grades means reasons to buy new Wii games, buy this and that(: Good luck my friends:D
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