the-unwritten-vista
Monday, July 13, 2009
Monday. 13 July 2009.
10:56pm.
Current Mood: All wrong.
I don't know what is wrong, but everything seems so wrong to me. I feel so insecure, helpless and somehow empty. I wanted to upload new photographs, my Cyber-shot played hide-and-seek with me. I wanted to Photoshop some past photographs, my Photoshop would not allow me to load most of the tools I needed. I wanted to talk, but I don't know who and what to talk about. I want to study, but those Physics & A Maths formulas would not get into my mind. I want to shop, but I want to save money too. I want to cry, but I'am afraid people around me would worry. I want to die, but I know that would not solve my problems.
When I was younger, I was always found with laughter. My grandmother always use to say I love to smile. All photographs of me were me smiling heartily, I don't cry. But now, as time passes, everything gets wrong. I forgot when was the last time I was as happy as the days of my kindergarten. I wished I would always remain at four years old. Today, my mother told me a terrible news. I felt like I lost my home after hearing it. The house where I grew up at and resident in every December was to be rented out. I still have a few other houses in HK, but they are not where I grew up in. It's as good as losing my home for me, even though it's only rented out. I felt like some new plant being shifted out of the greenhouse, so weak and homeless.
Vanessa Liu HATES Ian Lim. He tried to steal Si Ming Mitang's and mine Kim Hyun Joong from us!!! Kim Hyun Joong is Si Min and mine, so forget about him. I am so in love with Si Min's phone, because it's filled with photographs of Hyun Joong. By the way, it's a HTC Magic phone. HTC phones are my favourite(: Si Min's phone has the most number of songs ever possible. All my favourite Chinese and English songs could be found. Even rare Korean songs, which none of my other freinds have. Sad thing was, her phone don't have Bluetooth, so much for a Smartphone. Lastly, I love my Si Min 蜜糖(: I know it's random.
posted by vanessa loves you # 10:54 PM 
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